by Colleen Hoover
Summary from Goodreads:
Sometimes discovering the truth can leave you more hopeless than believing the lies…
That’s what seventeen-year-old Sky realizes after she meets Dean Holder. A guy with a reputation that rivals her own and an uncanny ability to invoke feelings in her she’s never had before. He terrifies her and captivates her all in the span of just one encounter, and something about the way he makes her feel sparks buried memories from a past that she wishes could just stay buried.
Sky struggles to keep him at a distance knowing he’s nothing but trouble, but Holder insists on learning everything about her. After finally caving to his unwavering pursuit, Sky soon finds that Holder isn’t at all who he’s been claiming to be. When the secrets he’s been keeping are finally revealed, every single facet of Sky’s life will change forever.
When I write reviews, I typically do so the day I finish a book or immediately after, then schedule my reviews a week or two in advance. I like to review when the book is fresh in my mind, so I’ve never waited more than 24 hours to review a book(granted, I haven’t been doing this that long, but still), until Hopeless. The reason? I just really needed some time to sort out my feelings on this book. It wasn’t at all what I was expecting going in, and I don’t know if I ever really recovered from that. Part of that was my fault. Despite the title, I wasn’t quite prepared for some of the plot twists, which I suppose I should have been.
I love Sky, the main character in the book. On the outside she’s so brazen, doing things like adding to the insults kids post on her locker at school, but inside often looking for a way to be numb. She can be funny and strong at times but she never comes across as stoic. She feels her emotions acutely, despite her search for a numb feeling at times, and I really like the balanced struck in her character.
However, Sky’s designated love interest at the beginning of the book, had me writing a post in my head about how romances in YA books need to change because obsession and stalking is not romantic. Holder doesn’t actually stalk Sky, but they joke about it, which rubbed me the wrong way a bit, and he does seem to have an unhealthy interest in her. Not so overtly that it becomes a huge problem, but enough that I was set on not liking the guy. It turns out that his reason for taking an interest in Sky actually has a logical and compelling basis, but since that’s not revealed until about three–fourths of the way through the book, it influenced my opinion of the first half of the book a lot. This is definitely one of those times when nothing was bad with the book, persay, it just personally didn’t work for me. By the end I had come around to being on Holder’s side and felt genuine emotional sympathy for his character, but I wish it would have happened a little sooner.
The story itself is is complex and incredibly emotional. There were times I felt a little teary because I just felt for Sky so much, and I’m not one to cry at books. I cried while reading the last Harry Potter book, and that’s about it. I’m a emotional person, but not a big crier(I tend to internalize my emotions more than actually show them), so for me to even have a hint of tears during a read speaks volumes for the emotional pull. With a less tactful hand the events and plots of Hopeless could have come off too soap-opera like or would have seem like an obvious gimmick to tug on the heartstrings, but everything that happened throughout Hopeless just seemed like a natural progression. This book hooked me right from the beginning and never let me go, even when I was frustrated. It was one of those books that was nearly impossible to put down, and it felt like each minute I read I went through the entire emotional continuum. If you want an emotional read, this is it.
Final Impression: This book grabbed my attention right away and never let go. It was an emotional roller coaster at times with a great main character at the helm. The main male character had me worried for awhile, but everything made sense by the end and I was firmly rooting for both characters. This book is one of few to prompt an external emotional reaction for me, and even though I enjoyed it thoroughly, before reading just know it does get quite depressing at times. 4/5 stars.